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11 maart 5 months have passedand it seems like so little has changed. The only thing that has changed is my son seems to have turned from baby to little man. He got a crew hair cut and now he's my little man. I'll have to add photos later. My daughter is more independent then ever and sometimes it seems like I'm dealing with a teenager! And that my friends, scares the sh*t out of me. If she's like that now at age 4, what will she be like when she really is a teenager? I've been at my new job since July and it's great! I fit in well and have automated several tasks to make work easier for others. I found that I love making others' jobs easier. Plus, the challenge is an amazing. Other news, my lifestyle has changed and I've lost the 45 pounds that I put on over the last 5 years and it feels great! My next challenge is to get down to my goal weight that I haven't seen in 15 years! With the help of SparkPeople.com, I found motivation, understanding and just straight truths. When it's all said and done changing my lifestyle to include health food choices and daily exercise was all I needed. Well, OK there is more, will power and portion control. Anyway, most of life is good and I'm making efforts to make the rest just a good. Peace! 27 juni New pictures!Here are some new pictures of my kiddies!! My son had his first hair cut and he didn't cry or move. 21 juni 6+ month updateOK, so another chunk of time has passed, but that's the way life can be for a full time mom/employee/wife. My kids are growing faster than I could ever imagine. My daughter will be 4 in a month or so and my son will be 2 at the end of the year. Both can make me smile when work and reality drag me down. They can both make me crazy in a blink of an eye. Even when I step back and do an examination of everything around me, I know I am so blessed with everything they have brought into my life.
My daughter is spoiled like most little girls her age and I see that on a daily bases, but I also see her being kind and helpful that observation and innocence guides. It's positively weird to observe teen behavior in her and I hope she doesn't grow to fast and not enjoy her childhood. However, with everything in the world I know I can not and should not shield her from reality. I truly hope that she continues to be her genuine self because it makes my heart grow.
My son is becoming the tough little bear I expected. He has so little fear for anything and him rough-houses and giggles with the best of them. He's becoming more independent each day, but he's still my baby. I know he'll still need me to hug him every now and again.
My husband is a whole other story that I know I would have, but it's hard because this is the 21st century. As a woman in today's society it's hard to accept the husband/male thought process, but I've known that it existed and that it takes longer to evolve. I know there are luck women out there who have found men that supports and appreciate them mentally, physically, and emotionally. It's hard for some men to change their "roles" in life but I know most of their upbringing has made that transition easier. However, some men just digress. Anyway, like I said that's a whole other story.
On a happier note, I'm in the progress of getting a new job. Hopefully, when it becomes official I'll be closure to home with more income. The job is challenging, but that's what I want. I have always know that if you want anything in this world you have to work hard. Also, with home life as it can be, challenging me at work makes me sane. What can I say, I'm crazy like that. 16 november Almost A YearIt's been almost a year since my son was born. It's been almost as long since I last made a blog entry. That should tell you what a full time working mom has on her hands. I think it would be a little easier if I worked closer to home, but I like what I do. Anyway, I digress...
I guess I'm just checking in to say HI and Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends that use to come by. I've had a few dream about them, my subconscience telling me it's time to blog again. Here is a resent picture of the family. Hope you enjoy! 23 februari For shits and gigglesOne saggy boob said to the other saggy boob: "If we don't get some support soon, people will think we're nuts." 07 februari Still dealing with the sickness I need to desperately cleanse my house and kids! The sickness has been passed around and is making its way to my husband. My daughter and I were sick over the weekend. I still have a slight case of laryngitis. Good news is my son isn't sick anymore. All he does is smile at use now. Yesterday was even worth the crazy gummy smile he flashed after shiting on me! I was glad he was feeling better. Sometimes you got to take one for the team. However, my daughter who had a fever of 103 last week is pushing all the wrong buttons. I swear if she doesn't get her self hurt, I'll hurt her myself! But seriously, she is so damn cute that when she throws a tantrum, it's hard not to laugh a little. My husband unfortunately lets out a full belly laugh and I have to spend time correcting her and him. Oh, well it's the toothless smiles that are getting me through it all.26 januari I'm tired of the sickness...So, second week back to work and Quinton picked up a nasty virus at the day care. I've seen the family practitioner four times in the last two weeks. Three times for Quinton, once for my Husband.
Quinton might have a respiratory virus (RSV) that has to be monitored weekly or it might devleop into something worst. My daughter and I have it, but we're more developed so it doesn't bother us much. He seems in good spirits too. Yesterday, smiling and cooing at me, but it is odd because it's like he has laryingist. The crying level is very low and at night when I change his diapers, he doesn't wake other family members.
My husband got the once over due to his accident last week. If you missed that, he fell asleep at the wheel and plowed into the back of a car stopped at the light. Anyway, he's going in for sleep study next month and a pulminary function test later this month. He's been put of blood pressure meds because his is abnormally high (180/120). The RN Practitioner said he will have a stroke if he doesn't take the meds. So he stopped drinking and is taking the meds and following through on the check-ups. That's more then I can ask for!
And to make things more difficult, my 97 KIA Sportage (yeah, I know I bought the first years) having some problems that required lots of money. However, that amount is worth it. I don't have payments on it right now and it gets us from here to there with out to much trouble. Hopefully, it will last until next year. Then I can get something nice like a Toyota Sienna <rolling eyes at the thought of a mini-van>.
Well, it's all good because life wouldn't seem normal if something wasn't wrong, right. All of this makes me appriciate what I've got and how worse it could be.
Got to love that. Cons to MotherhoodWell, something happened yesterday that happens a lot to commuters. My husband fell asleep driving home last night and plowed into the back of a car stopped at a red light. Everyone is fine and everything will be OK. Having a new baby in the house and the change in our daily routine may have contributed to his lack of sleep.
First off, I want it to be known that I am very concerned for my husband's helath and have set up a doctor's appointment to check him over head to toe. But here's the thing, the baby has been her for two months, so he should be use to the lack of sleep, right? Not! I'm the one that has to wake up, change, and feed baby. In addition, my daughter has been waking up in the middle of the night and needs attention for which I've been doing because I could catch a nap later. The only change here is that my husband has been helping with the midnight call from my daughter. I've been in training to do sleep deprived activities for the last 3 months and in the last few weeks, I've stopped taking naps in prep for returning to work. So here I am, fourth day back to work with an average of 5 hours sleep, two hour one way commute, and a two hour hustle in the morning and evening to feed, clothe, bath, or whatever the family.
Boy, am I tired, but I'm the Mommy - a role I occasionally debate about with myself. Do I want this? Do I need this? Why do I have to do this? Is it worth it? It's not the post-partum blues, because I've asked these questions several times in the last two years. Then I remind myself that there have been many before me that have done the same or even more as a wife, mother, employee, and sometimes even sister and grandmother. And I'm pretty sure that there will be more to come after me that do the same. But back to my self-involved debate - what would it be like to drop all motherly and wifely duties altogether? I would have more time and money - I'd go back to school and get my degree. I'd have time to spend with family and friends. Oh, I'd have friends again. I think I'd be more healthy because I'd be first in my life again and boy do I miss that the most. My husband and I were "discussing" something one night about not being fun any more. He said "I haven't changed, so what who's the one with the problem?" My retort - "You, our situation has changed so you have to." Situation being two dependents needing things continuosly.
I love being the mommy, but I’m definitely not "me" anymore. 17 januari Back in the saddle again!Today, my friends, is my first day back to work. You might notice a slight exuberant tone here and wonder what kind of mother in her right mind would be happy to rejoin the rat race? For that matter what kind of person! Well, I may not be in my right mind first off. Secondly, working 8 hours a day is like having a vacation from being mommy! I don't have to change diapers, chase after, feed, ect. anyone for at least 10 hours a day. OK, there are a few things that I miss, the silly giggles, proud smiles, and oh so great nap, but I'll survive and get plenty of all those when I get home. Sorry to say that I don't have any new pics to post, too busy to download from the camera. They (Sony) needs to set it up so that it's wireless and automatic! Anyway, I want to thank everyone that stopped by. It's nice to know that my short sibatical was missed and that you all think he's beautiful! 06 december My Baby Boy!14 november and still here...So another week has past and well, I'm still pregnant. The child that grows inside has decided it's just safer and warmer there then out in the real world. This gives me something to think about: The longer a child takes to be born, will that child stay closer to home later in life? Or will they run for the hills as soon as they figure it out? My daughter who was ten days early, takes off every chance she gets and she's only two. Just something I ponder on as I wake every two hours to piss! The baby seems to drop farther with each passing week. Two weeks ago I told my husby that I looked like a bubbly letter S. My pregnant belly and ass make the shapely curves of the letter. This week I look like a piece from the Tetris game. The one that looks like an L with an upside down L hanging off it, something like this - Ґ My belly and my ass making a straight connected line! When I look like an N, with my belly hanging lower than my ass, I'm going to demand delivery!
Fresh shots of my baby girl -
08 november another week...So another weeks has gone by and no baby yet. It's just hard to remember to stop by and let you all know. I've never felt so big in my life!! (OK, that was funny because I know a few men in the world who would love to be able to say that!) Anyway, the baby seems to have dropped even lower than I thought possible. I actually can eat food with out getting indigestion now. However, I spend more time in the bathroom. I was in the bathroom every hour last night, ugh! How can I get my rest if I have to get up every 60 minutes to go? Oh, well. Hopefully the doctor will have some good news at today's appointment. Like your starting to dilate or something along that line. Though I would like to wait until the 16th to have the baby. 24 oktober Another week......has come and gone. Only update is that we survived the CROUP and there is no baby yet. I'm feeling better than usually and that may be because the baby's dropped into the hip region and I got plenty of support there. Only occasionally does hurt to stand up because of the extra weight. I'm still counting down the days, but I'm hoping I get to November 16th. That way I can back three holidays and I won't have to use up all my leave! I'm being silly, how I can even hope to have the baby when I want to! Last time, my daughter was 10 days early. I was sick with a cold on Monday, so I decided to stay home on Tuesday. However, before I could even make the official call to the office that morning, I went into labor and she was born 10 hours later. It was just like going to work.
I've been trying to get the DR to approve one more sonogram so that I can confirm the birth, but that's been unsuccessful. We have decided on a name for a boy, though. Quinton Johnnie-Robert. If it's a girl, I really like Morgan Elizabeth, but husby won't accept the posibilities of a girl. It really doesn't matter either way, we just want health and happy. 11 oktober Closer and Closer...With each passing day another week goes by before I realize that I have not talked to this computer. I find that I forget about this outlet or I just don't have time, but either way sooner or later I find my words need to flow. Anyway, I'm starting to count down the weeks before EDD. Officially, it's 5 weeks away, but I'm feeling that he'll be early. So if I was a betting man I'd say 3 weeks left. WOW!! Three weeks, that's 21 day, OK that's better. Maybe I'll start counting the days there seems to be more than there are weeks left.
My sitter/ day care provider situation has been resolved. Today was the official first day for my daughter at a Learning Center. OK that means Day Care Center, but the State now regulates things and so it's now called a Learning Center. At first I was concerned because I felt that my daughter being only two was still a child of play, but after great research and observations (as required by mother instincts and my only livelyhood), I found that play occurs more then learning, but that the play is part of the learning experience. I'm happy for her. She loves playing with other children and I think she wasn't getting that enough with the individual care, but she was getting that extra attention and now she may not. I'll just have to give her more hugs and kisses! 29 september Has it been a week already?SO it's been a while, I just haven't had time or felt like saying anything nice lately. I know this is the perfect place for not saying nice things, but shit comes around all the time for me. I've been at home with my daughter because my sitter is still out. It's like she's pulling my strings lately. First she was going to be out for two weeks, then that turned in to three weeks, then four. Finally she said two more and she hopes she'll be able to sit the second week of October. While during all that time I've been struggling to find "emergency" day care for my two year old. If at the beginning of the August she had told me it would be over a month, I would have hauled ass to find a permanent replacement. Well, maybe she figured that out and that's why she's been dragging me along. Worse is my daughter is off any kinda schedule and it's driving her crazy. Her sleep patterns all off as well as her everyday shit. Oh, well, I don't even want to talk about how much time I've used that I banked for my maternity leave. I just wish my sitter ...
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